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From Chapter One Stephen Drew As a minister I rarely found the entirety of a Sunday service depressing. But some mornings disease and despair seemed to permeate the congregation like floodwaters in sandbags, and the only people who stood during the moment when we shared our joys and concerns were those souls who were intimately acquainted with nursing homes, ICUs, and the nearby hospice. Concerns invariably outnumbered joys, but there were some Sundays that were absolute routs, and it would seem that the only people rising up in their pews to speak needed Prozac considerably more than they needed prayer. Or yes, than they needed me. On those sorts of Sundays, whenever someone would stand and ask for prayers for something relatively minor--a promotion, traveling mercies, a broken leg that surely would mend--I would find myself thinking as I stood in the pulpit, Get a spine, you bloody ingrate! Buck up! That lady behind you is about to lose her husband to pancreatic cancer, and you're whining about your difficult boss? Oh, please! I never said that sort of thing aloud, but I think that's only because I'm from a particularly mannered suburb of New York City, and so my family has to be drunk to be cutting. I did love my congregation, but I also knew that I had an inordinate number of whiners. The Sunday service that preceded Alice Hayward's baptism and death was especially rich in genuine human tragedy, it was just jam-packed with the real McCoy--one long ballad of ceaseless lamentation and pain. Moreover, as a result of that morning's children's message and a choir member's solo, it was also unusually moving. The whiners knew that they couldn't compete with the legitimate, no- holds- barred sort of torment that was besieging much of the congregation, and so they kept their fannies in their seats and their prayer requests to themselves. That day we heard from a thirty- four- year- old lawyer who had al­ready endured twelve weeks of radiation for a brain tumor and was now in his second week of chemotherapy. He was on steroids, and so on top of everything else he had to endure the indignity of a sudden physical resemblance to a human blowfish. He gave the children's message that Sunday, and he told the children--toddlers and girls and boys as old as ten and eleven--who surrounded him at the front of the church how he'd learned in the last three months that while some an­gels might really have halos and wings, he'd met a great many more who looked an awful lot like regular people. When he started to de­scribe the angels he'd seen--describing, in essence, the members of the church Women's Circle who drove him back and forth to the hospital, or the folks who filled his family's refrigerator with fresh veg­etables and homemade carrot juice, or the people who barely knew him yet sent cards and letters--I saw eyes in the congregation grow dewy. And, of course, I knew how badly some of those  half- blind old ladies in the Women's Circle drove, which seemed to me a further in­dication that there may indeed be angels among us. Then, after the older children had returned to the pews where their parents were sitting while the younger ones had been escorted to the playroom in the church's addition so they would be spared the sec­ond half of the service (including my sermon), a fellow in the choir with a lush, robust tenor sang "It is well with my soul," and he sang it without the accompaniment of our organist. Spafford wrote that hymn after his four daughters had drowned when their ship, the Ville de Havre, collided with another vessel and sank. When the tenor's voice rose for the refrain for the last time, his hands before him and his long fingers steepling together before Excerpted from Secrets of Eden by Chris Bohjalian All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.