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This was my last glimpse of Marrow Island before the boat pulled away: brown and green uniforms clustered on the beach, tramping up the hill to the chapel and through the trees to the cottages of Marrow Colony. The boat wasn't moving yet, but the uniforms already seemed to be getting smaller, receding from my sight, shrinking into a diorama, a miniature scene of the crime.       Carey had helped me into the boat. I sank to the wheelhouse deck and curled into myself, sitting knees to chest, spine to prow. Joshua Coombs was calling out on the radio, requesting an ambulance to meet us in Anacortes. Katie tried to come aboard, but Carey hollered something to her and she ran back up the dock. He squatted next to me and spoke softly, just by my ear.       "We need to take off your clothes."       They were soaked through; I wouldn't be warm until I was dry. I understood that this was first aid; I understood that he was doing his job as the park ranger. I just didn't have it in me to participate in my own rescue. I was spent, scraped, and bruised. I leaned into him, eyes closing.       "Stay awake, Lucie," he said. "A little longer. Listen to my voice."       He lowered me carefully to my back, his parka under my head, and called to Coombs for scissors.       Carey kept talking, narrating as he undressed me, threading one arm through a sleeve, gently rolling me, tugging the shirt up my torso, lifting my head. I knew his hands were on me, but through my cold flesh they felt like the mitts of a giant, huge and heavy. He took off my socks âe<-- âeI have to cut these off. Then he slid the small sharp scissors up the outside of my leg through my jeans. He hesitated around my hip.       "Please try âe<-- âe      I was shivering uncontrollably. He rubbed my legs up and down under a blanket, telling me about circulation, about blood, about heat. I drifted.       "Stay awake, Lucie."       Coombs was starting the boat. Katie came back with more blankets. Carey told Katie to get down on the deck and wrap herself around me. She lay down beside me on Carey's parka, pulled me into her body, and rubbed my arms and back. He covered us both with the two blankets.       I breathed into the wool as the boat lurched through the swells, nausea rising up instantly. Katie seemed never to stop panting from her run up the shore. The bass beat of her heart, the thrust of the boat through the waves, and the feeling of fullness at the back of my throat. I wanted to purge everything inside me, but my bearings held.       "Don't let her go," I heard Carey say.   At the hospital in Anacortes, they treated me for hypothermia, but they were confused; I was going through more than one kind of shock. Carey told them I'd been lost on Marrow Island overnight âe<-- âe  Katie told the intake nurse she was my sister, and I didn't correct her. They let her sit by my bed all night.       "I'm not leaving you alone with her," Carey told me. She was standing right beside him when he said it, but she didn't defend herself. I didn't know what to say; I wanted them both.       Katie held my hand for hours, while my temperature rose and patches of my flesh became livid. I could feel the drunken movement of blood and plasma through my body, my cheeks throbbing, my toes and fingers buzzing. My breasts felt like meat cold from a locker. Eventually Katie slept, head next to mine, nose to my cheek, like when we were girls, like that first night after the quake, clinging to each other under a Mylar sheet in the gymnasium. I listened to her sleep; I felt her moving through her dreams.       Carey sat in a chair by the door, waiting for the sheriff, though he shouldn't have âe<-- âe      My notes were probably already in the sea or burnt to ashes. I tried to reconstruct the days in my mind, building a timeline, sorting details, drawing up the images of pictures I had taken, of things I had seen. I cataloged the different scents in the layered stench I gave off: conifer needles, stump rot, burnt lichen, fungi spores âe<-- âe  In the weeks after, back in the city, I woke alone in my third-floor apartment every morning. Outside, buses lumbered down Fremont Street, shopkeepers turned over their Open signs, people drank their coffee, checked their phones, walked their dogs. The city repeated its relentless, noisy cycle just like it had every day before and after that week I spent on Marrow. I listened, I watched. After the May Day Quake, over twenty years before, Seattle had rebuilt itself, from concrete rubble heap back to silver city, lessons learned, so we tell ourselves. Otherwise, what was the point of it all? What unlikely comfort we find in the refrain build, destroy, repeat. There are always survivors left to pick up the pieces. There's always someone to tell the tale.       I had my own refrain: I told the story of those days on Marrow hundreds of times in the first few months âe<-- âe       Build, destroy, repeat.       From my hospital bed, from my apartment, from the courtroom, I saw Marrow Island and Sister's Colony pillaged, and all the people there who were scraping out a little space for themselves âe<-- âe  Now I am five hundred miles away in the dry, pine-scattered forests of eastern Oregon, but every time I dream, I find myself back on the islands. In some dreams, I relive the events as they happened. In others, I realize I'm dreaming, and I try to undo the past, to make different choices. Either way I wake up feeling lost. How did I get here? How did this happen? I might be the only one left who knows.       The newspapers have moved on to other catastrophes. The Colony's history will fade into the archives; the colonists will become ghosts. No one will remember the names of those who performed a miracle on Marrow Island. I have never said so to anyone âe<-- âe Excerpted from Marrow Island by Alexis M. Smith All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.